Last night I had a dream about an old friend. Her name is (not really) Abigal. I met her in fourth grade. I remember feeling, instantly, that I wanted to be friends with her. She had...has...this amazing smile. It is this grin that takes over her entire face, and this way about her that just made me want to be her friend. Lucky for me, Abi and I did become friends...unfortunately I left for a different school after that year and did not see her again until junior high. We were kind of friends in junior high...oddly enough she was really close to two people I was close to...but we never became as great of friends as I hoped we could...good friends nonetheless, just not "bff's"...but I have always had a special place in my heart for her, and still hold on to the hope that someday, we can be friends again...better friends this time around...and according to my dream last night, I may be looking for more than that.
It really bites when you wake up from a dream and your heart is aching...especially when you didn't even have a super close relationship with the person your aching for!!! In my dream we ran into each other in some strange place...out in the sort of country, up the road from one of my other friend's homes. I went to see Abi, knowing she was the one that was there...and when I reached her, it was just emotionally overwhelming...for lack of a better description. I think eventually we may have kissed in the dream. I don't quite remember...I just remember kind of not wanting to wake up this morning (although that was also because I was super tired) and when I did wake up my heart hurt. Stupid dreams.
I realize I'm not the only one that has dreams like these...but it just adds insult to injury. It's like my mind is teasing me with what it knows will probably be something, someone, I will never have in my life again. Stupid brain.
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