"People only see what is visible, measurable. God sees into the heart. He not only forgives our failures, He sees successes where no one else does - not even ourselves. Only God can give us credit for the angry words we did not speak, the temptations we resisted, the patience and gentleness little noticed and long forgotten by those around us. Just being human gives us value in His eyes, and trying to live with integrity makes us successful before Him. God redeems us from the sense and fear of failure because He sees us as no human eyes can see us. Some religions teach that God sees so clearly that He knows all our shameful thoughts and nasty secrets. I prefer to believe that God sees us so clearly that He knows better than anyone else our wounds and sorrows, the scars on our hearts from having wanted to do more and do better, and being told by the world that we never would." ~Rabbi Harold Kushner

21 April 2010

I don't really believe this, but a girl's gotta wonder...

Last night was a rough night...as many of my nights are...I've been really overwhelmed lately between a job I hate, school, where I should go with my life...you know...the usual. Anyway...as I lay in my bed...trying to formulate some sort of comprehensive prayer I had a thought come to me...it went a little something like this...maybe the reason that Heavenly Father allowed me to like girls was so that I wouldn't feel as bad about not getting married...since I like girls, that is my excuse for not being married...whereas if I didn't like girls and I wasn't married I would just feel like an ugly loser.

I realize that thought is dripping with idiocy and self pity...but it has been a rough few months...and some days, some months...hell, some years...are just really tough. But today is an new day and I have tests to fail!
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