"People only see what is visible, measurable. God sees into the heart. He not only forgives our failures, He sees successes where no one else does - not even ourselves. Only God can give us credit for the angry words we did not speak, the temptations we resisted, the patience and gentleness little noticed and long forgotten by those around us. Just being human gives us value in His eyes, and trying to live with integrity makes us successful before Him. God redeems us from the sense and fear of failure because He sees us as no human eyes can see us. Some religions teach that God sees so clearly that He knows all our shameful thoughts and nasty secrets. I prefer to believe that God sees us so clearly that He knows better than anyone else our wounds and sorrows, the scars on our hearts from having wanted to do more and do better, and being told by the world that we never would." ~Rabbi Harold Kushner

13 August 2010

Stop Gap

something that fills the place of something else that is lacking; temporary substitute; make-shift.

These, stop gaps, these are what my life is composed off..."things" that just numb the pain...only for a few seconds, so it seems...and then temporary substitute wears off, runs out, loses it's "mojo", etc...and I am back to falling into the seemingly endless gap that is my life...at least that is how I feel.  I'm not trying to be melodramatic, or garner sympathy from all five of my readers...that is just how I feel.  

Nothing I do is ever going to be a real fix...everything will always be a stop gap...at least until the other side...and even then...who knows when that will happen.

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