Well...another year is upon us. As I happily say goodbye to 2010 and look to 2011 to not let me down, I think about the title of my blog and how I have endured this last year.
It has not been the easiest year...for many reasons. And I have not always endured as well as I would have liked. I have had some low lows this year. Not my lowest of lows...but low. I have felt sorrow and disappointment in myself and others. I have felt regret (see previous post). I have been angrier than I think I ever have been in my life. Angry with my Father in Heaven. Angry with my family. Angry with my friends. Angry with myself.
However (don't worry, this will not be a depressing post) despite all of the lows there are a few things that I'm so grateful for. Things that I would venture to hell and back if needs be, in order to keep a part of my life.
The first thing that I am most grateful for this past year, is the continued and strengthened solidity of my testimony of the gospel of Jesus Christ. As I've said many times previously, I KNOW that the gospel is true. And at 10:00pm on December 31st after a seemingly endless year I still know that the gospel is true. That has not changed. And believe me this year did not come without some overwhelming temptations. But what is constantly in the face of every temptation that has come my way is the truthfulness of the gospel. It is always true...regardless of what may be going on in my life. Just like the sun will always rise in the east and set in the west...regardless of whether cloud cover is so dense I can't see it.
I'm also very grateful for a God who keeps me humbled. My head tends to grow very large fairly quickly and my Father is quickly forgotten. So I'm grateful that my he knows that I need to "check myself before I wreck myself". Though the moments of getting checked can be a bit painful, it tends to knock my priorities back into order and I see the world a bit more clearly.
I'm grateful that the gospel and my Father in Heaven are constant. I know they will always be there. There is nothing else in my life that is as constant. Despite often wanting to choose another path, and at times, taking a few leaps and bounds down that other path, the gospel remains true and my Father remains with me...even when I wish he wouldn't.
And so, despite ending 2010 and what I would say is not my best foot, I have great hopes that 2011 and I are going to do a bang-up job of enduring.
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