I have been attempting to read the Old Testament. A handful of trusted friends, who have either taught it in seminary or institute, or meticulously studied it, are constantly talking it up. So, it is my turn to make an attempt to read the book that seems daunting and boring to every seminary student. (I did sit through O.T. seminary. I took it from a teacher who did not know how to teach. He struggled, but he was a great man who constantly expressed his love for the Savior).
My first look into it was 1st and 2nd Samuel. I didn't delve into Samuel as much as I should and I will repent, and return again. But I did delve into the story of David and Jonathan and their deep, abiding friendship. It is one of the greatest expressions of friendship I have ever read and is a testament to the importance of that particular relationship among man. The words are passionate, piercing. I think it is a great example of the love and friendship that the Savior must feel for each one of us, and it gives me great peace that a relationship so deep, and intense can exist between members of the same sex. It has helped me to put certain feelings and aspects of my feelings towards certain friends into a perspective that up until that point, I had found confusing and frustrating.
My second look was into Jonah...and I have been stuck there for about a week or two. Not because I am struggling, but because the book of Jonah, Jonah's story, his relationship with God, his personality, has touched me in a way that I cannot fully explain. Along with my trusty O.T study guide, and some insight for my therapist, I have come to understand, not only the story of Jonah better, but the nature of my own relationship with myself, with my Father in Heaven, and with my struggles.
Though many plain and precious truths have been lost for the Bible, with an open and willing heart, and some bonus insight, there is a wealth of discovery in that book. I am so grateful for it.
